Spotlight Friday: Butterflies

I love watching Butterflies doing their little dance around my flowers and enjoying the sun while taking a little rest or sipping on the nectar. Set off to  test another flower. Spread their wings to reflect the sun. Close them up to pretend they are just a boring one colored butterfly, just to shortly after give you a glimpse of their color explosion on their wings.

I tried to take pictures of them for many years. I only have a few pictures that are clear.

Last year when I was pulling weeds in my veggie garden I had a bunch of these guys nibbling on my just getting bigger veggie plants.

It was not only one or two….it was quite an army destroying my precious young plants. I picked one off and flicked it away.

Then I thought…hold, this does not look like a pest. Let me google what those guys are.

Well I found out they where Monarch caterpillars and that they needed saving not destroying.

So, I let the rest of them feast on my veggies.

This years I stumbled over a FB page that had a little “contest” going on. Send in a picture of you showing the  sign language for “butterfly” Then in return you would get a pack of seeds for  Milkweed, which is the food source of the Monarchs.  And some fun stuff and information to follow your butterfly population in your yard.


So just the other week we got our package with the seeds and all the good information about the Monarch Butterfly.

After two weeks of constant rain, we finally had the chance to get our seeds in the ground. Now it is a waiting game, hoping those seeds will take and we will get some nice Milkweed plants. And at some point hoping for a lot of happy Butterflies in our backyard.

Here is a little bit of info about, why Milkweed and what you can do to safe the Monarch Butterfly, just click on the picture and it will take you to the page. (

I think Butterflies are beautiful, stunning creations. So delicate but so influential.

I remember while living in PNG we went to a small Zoo and there was a house with a room full of Insect collections. It made me cringe when I saw all those beautiful big butterflies pinned and kept in a box. And those where no little butterflies.

But so beautiful, so sad that we as humans are destroying their environment.


So I am happy that my kiddo and I took another step to make sure we will have a safe place for those wonderful creatures. So they will know they can find food and a place to rest.

Now let’s go hunting for butterflies on!

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Nuno Felted Shawl, Wrap. Butterfly shawl felted with Soft Merino, Silk, Handspun yarn over Chiffon
by kybluefiber

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Handmade hand painted eggshell mosaic butterfly motif wooden box A4 size
by MereteiAnDesign

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The Butterfly Garden Digital Collage Greeting Card5592
by Cards by Colette

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Walnut Butterfly Octagon Wood Cremation Urn by MemorialsForever

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Make up bag
by Girlofthesixties

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Butterfly Puzzle by mypuzzlemania

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Flutter of the Monarch Butterfly Wings Beaded Earrings
by chickamoo

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Butterfly House w/Slant Roof by birdhousesbymark

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Butterfly and Daisies Crewel Picture
by CastawayCrafts

I got sucked into all those wonderful Butterfly items, it was hard to come back and finish my Spotlight. I hope you like what you saw so far.

Here are some more for you


I May the wings of the butterfly kiss the sun
And find your shoulder to light on,
To bring you luck, happiness and riches
Today, tomorrow and beyond.
~Irish Blessing

Spotlight Friday: natural cleaning supplies

Growing up in Papua New Guinea, I have learned to appreciate a few things. One of them is electricity when ever you want it and running water.

My Dad is a Lutheran Pastor, and it was his dream to be a Missionary in Africa. Sadly there was no position open there. The next open position was in PNG. I was 7 years old when we packed up all our things, most of them ended up in storage because we could only take necessities. Like tools, clothing anything that would work without electricity. It was all packed up in barrels. Our stuff when on the boat, we took the plane.

I was dropped of in Boarding School, a place called Katherine -Lehmann -School in Wau.  My parents and two siblings went on their new home. It was a 3 hour drive from Mt. Hagen towards the West. Basically in the middle of nowhere.

I came home I think 3 -4 times a year, to visit my parents during School breaks. There I learned that I had it quite good in Wau with running water and electricity.

My parents had a generator on their little farm, that would be started at 6 pm and  turned off at 10 pm every day.

Taking a shower was a new experience.

Our shower looked like this one   You had to heat up some water first, mix it with some cold water, pour it in the bucket. Pull the bucket back up and get ready. You only have a short time.

This is where I learned that we need to conserve our planet, that we should not be wasteful with our resources. Yes, I am one of those people. I get upset when hubby lets the water run to long, when the light is on in a room and nobody in it. One of those who closes all the doors, opens the windows etc.

Yes I am one of those people that does not put any poison on my plants, I want to eat them, not poison myself. I enjoy watching the natural bug control we have outside. Inside usually a shoe will do.

When I was back in Germany I learned that my skin reacts unpleasantly to all those additives, chemicals and sorts of nonsense that you can find in your lotions, soaps and shampoos.

So for me the natural thing to do was, make my own, ditch what I don’t need. My hair has not seen a shampoo in over 15 years.A quick rinse is just fine. Soaps I by online or at our market, made from goat milk or other yummy ingredients.

When my youngest was born I learned very quickly that she had the same skin issues, a little worse than I have. She even reacted to the laundry soap. And I never bought the ones that smelt strong. So next thing for me…..make your own.

so this week I want to share with you all those wonderful people that create cleaning and washing items:

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Vanilla cold process soap by tenthavenuesoapworks

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Coffee Kitchen Soap by EarthSoapCo

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Goats Milk Soap Beautiful Fragrance (3 5.5oz Bars)
by birdhousesbymark

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Laundry Soap Flakes for Baby’s Delicate Skin – 100% Pure and Natural (1 Load Trial Size) by EarthwiseNaturals

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SPECIAL Natural Laundry Soap–250 to 500 Loads–Fa
by LuckyGirlBoutique

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Handmade Laundry Detergent for HE Washers and Regular Light Lavender Rosemary Scent
by BriggysBathandBody

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Lavender Dryer Sachets – Laundry Buds – Organic Lavender – Eco Friendly – Lavender Sachet – Handmade in USA
by pomegranatefarm

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Repel Spiders, Dust Mites, and Other Creepy Crawlies with ‘Z-Best Carpet Deodorizer’ by Naturalana

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All Natural, made-to-order, Customizable, Dishwasher Bombs
by Shelly’s Serenity

I love the smell of natural ingredients in my cleaning supplies.


Now off to make some cookies and bake some bread. And you guessed it right, my egg shells will go on my compost.

                                                                 Have a wonderful day!

Spotlight Friday: path, intuition, balance

The other day I had a “mini reading” from

she does a reading with one card periodically or you can get your own full card reading. I love those mini readings, so far they have supported me in my decisions that I have been making and sometimes felt a little insecure if I was on the right path .

This week I got the card of “Goddess of Air” and it said :

[Goddess of Air] A balancing of past karma is coming. You are advised to prepare yourself to sweep out the old patterns and accept the new ones. This is a time of growth, and if you are willing to transform, you could find yourself on a new path.

“wow” was my first comment when I read it. Just what I was working on lately. I felt stuck, they way I had been doing stuff, the way I was tackling things.  I am still not quite sure how this is going to  change, but I am sure that if I keep an open mind, then I will find the new path, or that new path will find me.

Change is never easy. I will have to take it step by step and see where this new path will lead me.

Lately I have been feeling lost, stuck, indecisive. I had little hints and help here and there from friends, strangers and family. But I still didn’t feel quite ready yet, my eyes have not been quite open. So this for me is like a “wink mit dem Zaunpahl” , like a “Hint of the fate”

I am a very intuitive person. I listen very much to my inner “little” voice. When something doesn’t feel right, I will not do it. Even if there is no right explanation for it.  Decisions in my  life are seldom founded on rational thinking, yes the money things are, but anything to do with life are hugely influenced by emotions.

Of course this card got me thinking now. What old patterns should I sweep out and welcome the new?

So I went and searched for  “balancing Karma”. I believe that I have to humble myself a little more, let go of things, that I think I need to control. Trust myself and my family and friends. Don’t worry so much about the if, whens and whys. Just let it be. Not an easy task for me. Also in the same swing, I need to let go for myself too, be in the moment more, enjoy more of those little things. That cup of tea in the morning, without checking my mails. Watch those bees as they are humming around the flowers. Stop and watch my kids play games together, the close will be just fine laying there a little longer. Sometimes I am my worst enemy, putting too much pressure on myself. “What will the friends and neighbors think of me, when they come over unexpected?”

Right now I know I have a inside quarrel, I know this, because I can’t even sit down and enjoy my craft. I am restless. I want to sit down somewhere with a box of colors and color a Mandala . That has always calmed me and let me focus. Right now we have Spring break and our yearly BBQ right around the corner. So not really the time to find a quiet moment to crawl into myself and just be with me.

So while I am typing this, I popped on my old headphones and turned on my “vintage” CD player, to shut everyone out. So I can be in my thoughts and sort things out.  Listening to “Boys II Men”   

I have found a few things on Zibbet that would fit for today’s Spotlight:

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Path to the Woods Digital Art Greetings Card
by SandraLock

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path by mikexu1975

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Moonlight Path Inspired Soap~Bath and Body works by Kreative Kitchens Handcrafted Soaps

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intuition necklace
by thebeadedlily

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Personalized Well Being Affirmations With Intuitive Message Positive Changes Enhance The Law of Attraction
by ASerendipityWorld

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Intuition loose mineral powder multiuse color makeup bare earth pigment minerals
by MADmineralsmakeup

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Yin Yang Nesting Large Round Coffee Table by Studio1212

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Chakra Spiral Earrings, Copper with Gemstones
by DancingMoon

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Simply Balanced
by NaturesArtist

My wish is to find that balance for my life.  I realize it is not the goal that counts, but the path there. It is easier though  if you have a goal to work towards, a picture you can have for your inner eye.

I know that I am total out of balance at the moment. I believe acknowledgement is the first step. Now it is on me to keep the momentum going and welcome the change.


I wish you a meaningful day!

Spotlight Friday: friendship

I had a little bit of a heartache the other day. That questioned my level of friendships. I am not one that warms up quickly to people. But once I am in , I am all in and that means I will get hurt on a deeper level if something goes south. Some people call it “being to sensitive”, I call it “being totally invested or committed”

Wikipedia has this to say about friendship:

Friendship is a relationship of mutual affection between two or more people.[1] Friendship is a stronger form of interpersonal bond than an association. Friendship has been studied in academic fields such as sociology, social psychology, anthropology, and philosophy. Various academic theories of friendship have been proposed, including social exchange theory, equity theory, relational dialectics, and attachment styles. A World Happiness Database study found that people with close friendships are happier.[2]

Although there are many forms of friendship, some of which may vary from place to place, certain characteristics are present in many types of friendship. Such characteristics include affection, sympathy, empathy, honesty, altruism, mutual understanding and compassion, enjoyment of each other’s company, trust, and the ability to be oneself, express one’s feelings, and make mistakes without fear of judgment from the friend.

While there is no practical limit on what types of people can form a friendship, friends tend to share common backgrounds, occupations, or interests, and have similar demographics.

There it is this word: honesty

Honesty, for me is one of the main ingredients for a relationship to work. I give 100% honesty but also expect 100% honesty. Maybe I am wrong for that but in my opinion that is the only way relations are going to be fruitful and enjoyable.

Yes honesty is not always easy, sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it is very difficult to admit something to the other person. Sometimes it is hard to hear the truth. I believe only with knowing the truth we can make honest decisions, decisions that take us further not backwards.

So much precious time is wasted on lies and deceiving, so much energy used up for remembering who did I tell what.

Why is it that some people believe that the ” I ” is more important then the “we” ? Therefor they lie and hurt people just to get ahead, to be “better”.

I might not be a person with a big number of friends. But the ones I have I hold close to my heart. I have friends, that I have not seen in years, but I know we are still connected. We pick up the phone and it is just like we had seen each other yesterday.  With the friends I have, I made the experience that  what ever I tell them, it will stay with them. This is what is expected of me, so I will expect it from them. There is no need of adding the words “don’t tell anyone”.

Also do I know that when I have a opinion on something, I can share it with me friend, even though she might not see eye to eye with me on it. We accept each other the way we are. And if there is something said or done, or not done, and feelings get hurt we can and should be able to tell each other. Because I trust my friend that she did not do this on purpose. We apologize and move on.

I believe, my time here on earth is to short to waste it with dishonesty, trying to impress others just to get a so called better life, what others think of a better life.  I find myself in a spot at the moment where I am content, where I don’t have to pretend to be something that I am not. And that I have people in my life that take me as I am, with all my quirks and weirdness.

Yes, I have learned a valuable lesson this week.  Often it is not what it seems, I did get blindsided. I guess some people would say I am naive. I would call it ” I am to trustworthy and like searching for the the good in everyone”.  I did get burn, yes it hurt. It still stings a little. But I will move on. And I am sure the next time I will go in 100% again, because that is just who I am.

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Lucky Charm Four Leaf Clover Necklace with Friendship Quote by JillsJewels4you

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Heartstrings Burlap Throw Pillows
by CaraMiaDecor

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Come sit on the porch with me. the drinks are cold and the friendships free wood sign by COULD CHUCK WOOD DESIGNS

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Friendship Note Cards Flowers and Butterflies Orange Handmade set of Eight
by luvncrafts

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Mini purse Friendship
by Saraswatihome

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You are my Sunshine Sign, 8×8 Chevron Sign
by Dandelion Wishes Design

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Love, Laughter, & Friendship Wood and Vinyl Sign
by splinterscustomwoodworking

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Friendship Pendant, Chinese Symbol Art Pendant by snowdrop88

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Friendship Bracelet, Hand Painted, Stack Bracelets by mainecooncrafts

While I was searching “friendship” on Zibbet , I was thinking about my friendships I had in life so far, some still existing from when I was a little girl. Yes they have gone to sleep for a little while, but then all of a sudden blossomed. I believe a good solid friendship can help you get through though times as well as it can be the fireworks of your life at other times.


I hope everyone of you has  a dear friend in their life, that you know you can count on for the heavy  stuff but also for the silly things in life!!

Spotlight Friday: relax, peace, tranquility

This week I don’t know if I am coming or going. I will be relieved when calmer days arrive.

It actually started last week. Hubby had to take a pneumonia shot, his workplace requires that. The next day he was sick, with chills and an angry tummy. I love my Hubby, but him being sick is a challenge for me. So when I saw this picture on my timeline on FB, I thought “oh, thank you, for whom ever posted it, but that is just what I needed”  It made me smile and it

marriagewas easier to carry on.  Hubby was in quite a grouchy place until Friday. He did go back to work on the weekend. After work the kids and my hubby decided to play football in the yard. Back came a bruised middle finger on my oldest and a bruised foot on my hubby. What where they doing ? Packed ice on everyone and listened to their”ouch, ouch” all evening. Come Sunday, I had two kids sitting on the couch complaining about sore throats. So far I never had them home sick at the same time. But Monday morning, both of them with fever and nearly no voice. The oldest recovered pretty quick and was back in the saddle on Tuesday, the other one finally went back to School on Thursday. In between, hubby stayed home for two days because his foot had swell up so bad that he couldn’t stand anymore.

Take a deep breath I was thinking, you can get through this, you only need to finish one custom order of socks and one of a bride mouse. In my head it was screaming “when will you have time to finish this?”

I did manage to find some time in the evening, while sitting next to my feverish kiddo.

Bride Downloads3So everyone is back to work and School, so I can get back to my business.  So I thought!

On Wednesday, I kept smelling electrical fire, but I couldn’t locate it. I thought it was the hood over the stove. I had hubby take it down, but nothing seemed to be wrong. So I went to bed. During the early morning hours, hubby made himself some breakfast ( I know weird, but because of his weird shifts he is up at the oddest hours), I think he fried some meat. When the kids and I got up around 6:30 am, and wanted some eggs for breakfast nothing was working anymore. All 4 knobs where turned up to high and nothing. Oh boy, I guess we need a new stove.  So we went out after I dropped one kids off in School, other one hasn’t been fever free for 24 h, for to be returning to School, and bought a new stove. “it will be delivered Monday” ….aehm…no we need it today, we can’t do 6 days without a warm meal. We will pick it up in the afternoon.

That we did, hooked it up, cooked 1/2 of a dinner on it before it decided to entertain us with a big boom and a spark. I ran outside to see if the breaker was on off. No, stuck somewhere in the middle. Unplug everything and start searching the internet an electrician.

Asking around on FB, calling friends, but came up empty. The guys that I had found online so far all couldn’t come before Friday. By Wednesday night 11 pm, I was exhausted and to uneasy to go to sleep. I shut the laptop and said to myself ‘ you need to get some sleep”. I tried, but I was tossing and turning, every time I woke up I was sniffing to find out if there was any smoke.

After School drop of, and unhappy kids because they had to eat cereal, I went back to calling electricians. I finally found one that said: I will be out in about 1 – 11/2 and look at it. Yes please!!

He was here, we explained what was going on and he looked at the socket that had made itself known with such a loud noise the night before.

He unscrewed the thing and said “oh, wow”. Well that didn’t sound good to me. And he then showed me this


That didn’t look good. So my next question was: “how longs has this been going on?”  him:”for a long time” me: “what do you understand under a long time, weeks, months?” “no” he said “years, probably since they built the house, who ever was responsible for this socket never tightened the wires properly.”

We where living on a ticking time bomb.  But it is fixed now, our new stove didn’t take any damage of it, and we will have a warm dinner tonight.

I really think, I had enough excitement and stress the past few days. I could do with out it for a while. Spring break is still a bit over a week away. So I will try to sooth my self in some tranquility, peace and relaxation that I can find online.

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Rocky Mountain stream contemporary mountain landscape 8×10 fine art print
by paintedfeatherart

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“Tranquility” Mosaic Heart Pendant with CZs on adjustable Heart-Link Chain
by KnowYouAreLoved

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Yoga Bird Dish – Namaste – HandMade Pottery by LoveArtWorks

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Peace Water by honoringmotherearth

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Blue Topaz & Carnelian Empathy & Peace Energy Set
by ErdeGeist

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Peace – Wood Pendant – Chinese Symbol – Amboyna Burl by DustyNewtKeychains

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White Handwoven Hammock Natural Cotton / Thread Thickness “18”
by hangAhammock

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Bath Bombs,Lavender bath bombs,handmade,homemade
by Arlyn’s Creations

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Tea Teabags 25 Lemon Honey green Hand Blended tea in teabags with a beautiful tin
by teaman

I will take my own advice and will stretch out tomorrow and do only the bare minimum. I will sit on my couch and work on a steam punk college teacher mouse, that I have already started.

So I hope you will have a peaceful and calm weekend, with only good excitement!



Spotlight Friday: ghosts and Spirits

Growing up we lived in a house that had some history. It was a Pastors house, and the couple that lived in it had committed suicide, they even took their dog with them. My Dad had the possibility to totally remodel and add on. Some parts did have to stay because it was directly connected to the Church, so the spot where the couple took their final breath was actually still there. My bedroom was in the basement not too far away from that spot. And I always had the feeling that someone was still there, especially at night I felt very uncomfortable to go use the bathroom.

Years later when I moved to Munich to start working and living on my own, I lived in a one bed apartment. Strange things where happening there too. One night, I was already sound asleep, I awoke from a loud noise. I got up looked in my bathroom, in my closet, looked closer in my room. But I didn’t see anything, so I went into the kitchen. And there where two milk cartons laying on the floor, one had busted open. How did they get there? They where both on top of my top cabinets all the way pushed into the corner.

Another one that really spooked me out was, I came back from work, some time around 6 pm. I usually left the house around 8 am. There was a pot sitting on my stove, full of boiling water. Nobody else then me had a key to this apartment. And if I would of had put a pot on with water in the morning, I am sure it would of been gone by the time I got back, if not even worse.

I didn’t have any visitors after I had moved and didn’t feel uncomfortable for many years. Until we moved to SC. It is not as spooky as it was in my earlier years, but here and there I can feel a presents of someone/ something. About two years ago though, I got up to use the bathroom and when I got back into bed there was this bright floating light close to my bed. That freaked me out. I said out loud: “please leave” And I have never seen it again. Still to this day there are some times when I feel that I am not alone in the house, but it is not a negative vibe.

Lately my little one though is waking up in the middle of the night and comes running, because she feels someone watching her at night. She says it’s a shadow with eyes. That got me worried. She is very sensitive and in tune with her surroundings. She was brave enough to leave that spirit a note and asked him to leave. Right now I am at a loss of what else I could tell her to how to handle this kind of situation.  My hubby has told me many years ago that he had some encounters too.

What are your believes? Have you seen Spirits or ghosts?

Now to my search on, what can I find if I search for ghosts and spirits?

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Spirit Oil for Spirit Guides by ArtOfTheRoot

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Dolphin Spirit Pendant by earthlifeshop

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Native American Spirit Doll by honoringmotherearth

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Ethereal Cat Ghost. Small matted print by merryuncanny

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Oak Framed embroidered spirit dancer picture on blue canvass
by embroidereddreams

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Spirit Tree Hardwood Chest by DekoMuse

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Digital Scan GOTHIC GHOST BRIDE Antique French by FrenchKissed

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Ghost lampwork glass bead necklace by FlamingHeart

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The Skeleton Coast – Petrified 7 x 5″ fine art photography print – dead tree b&w
by shashamane

and here are some Spirit items I found on Etsy


Spotlight Friday: sleep

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To go to sleep I count antlers, not sheep distressed wooden sign by RusticNorthern

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Pin Back Button – Sleeping Squirrel by MagicMoonMavis

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Restless Mind Sleep Aid Linen Spray by meadowmuffin2010

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Sleeping Cherub Cross Stitched Hand Towel by NeedfulThingsofSalem

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Prim Farmhouse Folk Art Wooden Sheep Wall Hanging Sign “Sleep Well” by Mother Hen Primitives

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Sleepy Dog TTV 5×7 Print
by ebonypaws

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Counting Sheep Bookmark
by welshmillie

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Tea Teabags 25 Sleepy Blend Hand Blended tea with lavender and chamomile in teabags
by teaman

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Cat cave, house, bed, nap cocoon from natural felted wool. Color burgundy dark Size L.
by kivikis cat cave

I never thought the time would come where I wished I could sleep more and better. As a Teenager I didn’t think sleeping was important, I never gave it a second thought. I could sleep in on the weekends until about 10 am, not unless it was snowing and I had to get up and shovel the walkway to the Church. I used to sleep deep, nothing would wake me up.

A few years later when I started working in a Foster home it completely changed my sleeping habits and the depth of my sleep.  When you know you have 8- 12 kids in the house with you and they are mostly teenagers, you only sleep with one eye and one ear closed. You are the one responsible that no one climbs out of a window or has any other weird ideas over night. Sometimes I had the whole weekend shift, and I was a wreck after that. During the week we usually had either the early shift, which meant be there at 6 am to wake everyone up, work until 8, then have break until lunch. Or the late shift starting at 2 pm , officially until 10 pm, but you know with kids you never get out “on time”.  I lived about a 35 min drive away from work and if you had the late shift you had early the next day. Then you throw the swing shift from my hubby in the mix and you have a disaster of sleep chaos happening. He gets up at 2:30 am for early shift and at 6:30 am for late shift.  He learned during his military time to go to sleep anywhere anytime. He sleeps before his head hits the pillow. I am so jealous of him, I can’t do this. As a mom you have a gazillion things that go through your head at night, stuff that didn’t get done, that needs to get done fist thing next morning etc. It is hard to turn that stuff off. Then we still have a kiddo that wakes up in the middle of the night and finds a way into our room and wants to crawl in with us.

I know I have to find a way to relax and fix my sleeping mess, I know it is affecting my health. But is this hard. I thought fixing our food habits was hard, this seems nearly impossible to me at the moment. Often I wake up and feel like, I just went to sleep, I don’t want to get up now.  I do tend to try to solve my problems while I am sleeping. How do I know? Ask my teeth. I sleep with a extra hard night guard, otherwise my teeth would be stubs. My front bottom teeth are pretty short and the ones on the top are so fragile because my bottom teeth have ground groves in the back, so the chip or brake if I don’t wear the guard. So there goes my peaceful sleep. I know I have to take this one step at a time. Many moms told me, you will not be sleeping properly again until your kids have moved out of the house…… I sure hope to get some better sleep before that happens.

I tried Valerian roots, Lavender oil, I have put duct tape over all the green lights from alarm clocks etc.  Oh and I forgot our cat, the newest thing is, he likes sleeping with me under my blanket. I push him out, he comes back.

So if you have any remedies of getting better and deeper sleep, I would love to hear it.