The other day I had a “mini reading” from https://www.facebook.com/ZoesZenGarden?fref=nf
she does a reading with one card periodically or you can get your own full card reading. I love those mini readings, so far they have supported me in my decisions that I have been making and sometimes felt a little insecure if I was on the right path .
This week I got the card of “Goddess of Air” and it said :
[Goddess of Air] A balancing of past karma is coming. You are advised to prepare yourself to sweep out the old patterns and accept the new ones. This is a time of growth, and if you are willing to transform, you could find yourself on a new path.
“wow” was my first comment when I read it. Just what I was working on lately. I felt stuck, they way I had been doing stuff, the way I was tackling things. I am still not quite sure how this is going to change, but I am sure that if I keep an open mind, then I will find the new path, or that new path will find me.
Change is never easy. I will have to take it step by step and see where this new path will lead me.
Lately I have been feeling lost, stuck, indecisive. I had little hints and help here and there from friends, strangers and family. But I still didn’t feel quite ready yet, my eyes have not been quite open. So this for me is like a “wink mit dem Zaunpahl” , like a “Hint of the fate”
I am a very intuitive person. I listen very much to my inner “little” voice. When something doesn’t feel right, I will not do it. Even if there is no right explanation for it. Decisions in my life are seldom founded on rational thinking, yes the money things are, but anything to do with life are hugely influenced by emotions.
Of course this card got me thinking now. What old patterns should I sweep out and welcome the new?
So I went and searched for “balancing Karma”. I believe that I have to humble myself a little more, let go of things, that I think I need to control. Trust myself and my family and friends. Don’t worry so much about the if, whens and whys. Just let it be. Not an easy task for me. Also in the same swing, I need to let go for myself too, be in the moment more, enjoy more of those little things. That cup of tea in the morning, without checking my mails. Watch those bees as they are humming around the flowers. Stop and watch my kids play games together, the close will be just fine laying there a little longer. Sometimes I am my worst enemy, putting too much pressure on myself. “What will the friends and neighbors think of me, when they come over unexpected?”
Right now I know I have a inside quarrel, I know this, because I can’t even sit down and enjoy my craft. I am restless. I want to sit down somewhere with a box of colors and color a Mandala . That has always calmed me and let me focus. Right now we have Spring break and our yearly BBQ right around the corner. So not really the time to find a quiet moment to crawl into myself and just be with me.
So while I am typing this, I popped on my old headphones and turned on my “vintage” CD player, to shut everyone out. So I can be in my thoughts and sort things out. Listening to “Boys II Men”
I have found a few things on Zibbet that would fit for today’s Spotlight:
My wish is to find that balance for my life. I realize it is not the goal that counts, but the path there. It is easier though if you have a goal to work towards, a picture you can have for your inner eye.
I know that I am total out of balance at the moment. I believe acknowledgement is the first step. Now it is on me to keep the momentum going and welcome the change.
I wish you a meaningful day!